Monthly Archives: September 2009

sexual shame, part four

Alec: uh, “self esteem”? me: uh, too shy? Alec: yeah. you’re not sexually shy. that’s funny. me: alec, in your humble opinion, am i too shy to fuck toys in front of guys or, god forbid, touch myself? Alec: No. … Continue reading

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sexual shame, part three

Re: Self Magazine, October 2009 Cover Story on Pg. 172, “Sexual Confidence” by Deanna Kizis   Referred to in the table of contents as “10 Simple Sex-Life Improvers: Shed sexual hang-ups and savor more satisfaction…” Self magazine, now is when … Continue reading

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on demand, part four

Something about the introduction and the conclusion of the night somewhat horrified me: It was my first meta sexual experience: He asked me if I could squirt before we hooked up—as if he were preparing to order something off the … Continue reading

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on demand, part three

After he came, I thought, “Really, that’s it?” Then I thought, “Oh well, now that that’s over.” It was boring, anyway. Imagine if it was routine for sex to only last two minutes. I could have accumulated a total of … Continue reading

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on demand, part two

I would say he threw me down into the bed, but it was more like we fell into the bed together, made out klutzily, and generally fumbled around with one another. I’ve really gone out of my way to avoid … Continue reading

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on demand, part one

Upon meeting him my first thought was, “How do I fuck him?” My friend’s brother, Danny. He was visiting for a week. It seemed doable. My deadline was August 1st. My glimmer of hope was when we were discussing HUMP!, … Continue reading

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sexual shame, part two

I received a reply from Yvette, the writer of the sexual shame article: “I found your answers to be so moving, interesting — and relatable. I know a lot of people have similar stuff going on! I wanted to know … Continue reading

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